Friday, March 13, 2009

Spill.

I don't have any secrets.
Not from you, anyway.

I like a boy. There. Happy?
I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back.
But I can't stop liking him.
I like him a lot.
and it's stupid. I feel awkward about liking him,
because even if something did happen,
I wouldn't have a clue how to be a what's expected.
I don't know how to freaking kiss.
I'm seventeen and a half and i haven't been kissed.
Pretty sure that's some sort of sign.
Maybe I'm unappealing.
Maybe my inexperience is unappealing.
Maybe I should stop caring and just run away to Honduras and volunteer there for the rest of my life. I'll live off the scraps of food I give to the kids.

or something.

11 comments:

Ben said...
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Ben said...

When you like someone in your life, it gives a goal and hope to live it, even though maybe that person doesn't like you back ( as much ) or doesn't even "know" you like him a lot. With no doubt ,Juno,there won't be anyone that doesn't like you or if they don't like you it is because of their jealousy towards you. Because you haven't been kissed doesn't mean you don't deserve to be loved. Who know maybe it turns out you are an awesome kisser ! :P Sometimes in our lives it is better we forget what others have done by age of 17 ( or any other age ). In the other hand it is not good to hide a feeling for someone for a long time and use assumption that if he likes you or not. Try to find out if he likes you or not. Try to find out what he likes about you and then do the judgment if he deserves your love or not.
Some times not engaging into a strong feeling for someone is the best , if the person is going to use or hurt you at the end. I
want you to know nothing is wrong with you. None of us is perfect, remember that always. You are much better than many others , think about yourself in that way! But you know this is life and love is the joyful disease of it :)

westerlyRI said...

i know how you feel. when situations involving boys come around, i never know what to do about it. everything is so dead slow and they go nowhere. maybe it's just me though because i don't know what to do. i have no practice.

you go to an all-girls school, yes? well i'm in the same boat. i've gone to the same all-girls school for 11 years i'm 15 and a half and i've never been kissed. i think it has something to do with the environment i'm in.. all girls all the time.

some people who go to my school seem to be so accelerated in these ordeals. i'm just not, and i don't know why.

but not being kissed yet doesn't mean that you don't deserve to be. sometimes, though, i just don't understand me at all.

Denise said...

We should talk.

<3

Jess said...

Juno.
<3
Don't freak out. You have your whole life to do things. Just concentrate on being you :D

Simon said...

we need to see each other.
this weekend.
i know you're busy.
but if you find a spare hour.
call me.

gwynn255 said...

One of my best friends is going to be 19 in a couple of months, she's never been kissed before.
I didn't get kissed until I was 16 and a half.
One of my best friends is going to be 20 in September and she was first kissed when she was 14.
We all have our own time frames for those sorts of things, and that's perfectly fine. My cousin had his first girlfriend when he was eleven, my sister had her first boyfriend when she was 16. One of my uni friends just got her first boyfriend, she's 18.

You're beautiful and I can't see anything about you that could EVER be seen as 'unappealing'.

Oh and I love you.

Franck said...

Juno,

You are a magnificent,beautiful intelligent, sensible young woman : everyone has his own path ..

There no reason to hurry : you'll find, I know, this young sensible man you deserve.

Ben said...

Well as you can see Juno, everyone adores you and in their heart and mind you are an awesome person which is true. However, there is "something" that occupies our brains now and then and feed on us being negative about ourselves. I don't know what is it but it makes you down, makes you think of yourself as an unvalubale person or unworthy. Beware not to let it settle in you! Try to avoid it. The times that you feel down or have lost confidence in yourself try to talk to a good mate of yours that understands you. Take care :)

kenzie said...

i lost my first proper kiss virginz when i was 12 and i been doin it ever since. -_-
i regret that
i wish i was older so i could have made it more special.

i think you're lucky
you can choose your scenario sorta.

pfft unappealing? sif! junos a sexy beast!

Ryan said...

You're beautiful! I'd take you in a heart beat.